Author Archives: Sazan Barzani
LAF Spring Preview/Brunch
I’ll tell you what I want what I really really want! I still dream about wanting to be a Spice Girl. I wore this outfit last week to Lovers & Friends’ Spring 2014 brunch/preview and had such a blast (and so did my tummy! Mmm). I’ve totally been channeling my inner Sporty Spice lately. Of course I added a little pinch of Sazan (sounds like a seasoning!) to this look with the chic heels and bold hairstyle. ‘Tis the season to take risks with your hairstyle and try fun new trends. I didn’t need to use a hair donut to create this look, but I know it can be challenging trying to shape the perfect top knot. I found some really cute mini little hair donuts (linked below) that you can use to help make the process easier! I totally recommend it if you don’t have natural volume and need a little boost. Just make sure you cover it completely and match it with your hair color!
Have an amazing week ya’ll! Keep it sassy! <3
Religion, Race & the “Love Your Ethnicity” Game
Happy Friday! You know what that means….I’ve got an all new episode of The Mix for you guys! Today my blogger babes Grasie, Taye and I are joined by Girl Talk HQ’s Asha Dahya and actress/blogger of Clothes Horse NYC’s Amelia Alvarez! We’re hitting a tough topic is avoided (especially in Hollywood): Race/Religion. We’re sharing our personal beliefs and playing a fun ethnicity game. Check it out and sound off in the video comments letting us know your take on the subject.
Since we didn’t have enough time in the video for all of us to expand on this topic, I want to share my personal experience. For me, my faith is at the center (picture it being the engine) of everything I do today. I wasn’t born a Christian, in fact it’s not something my parents were too fond of when I told them. I didn’t wake up one day and say, “Hey I’m going to be Christian today.” It doesn’t work like that. Ethnically a majority of Kurds from Iraq (where I’m from) are Muslim, but I was taught to believe in God as a higher being and not really attach religion to it. I am someone who has prayed every night since I was 6 years old, but I thought, “Who are you God? Are you real?” I think I just became more curious as I grew older and wanted to know who God was and if He really existed.
“When fear comes knocking on the door, answer with faith.”
Three years ago, I went through a pretty tough time at home after my brother got sick and in my personal life where relationships with people who I put all my happiness in started to fade away. I became so unhappy with myself and tried to hide behind my work. At the time I didn’t know that this was God pulling me away from all the distractions so He could step in. He wasn’t going to start the transformation until I opened my heart. I think when something devastating happens in our lives whether it’s a bad break-up, a sudden job loss, or close family death, we quickly start questioning God and get so angry with Him because we aren’t happy. Being the control freak that I was– I was afraid to let go and let God. I was also afraid to know God, because this would disappoint my parents and change the traditional beliefs established in my culture. However, I tried living my life that way and it failed me. It was time to try things my way.
When my little brother (8 at the time) was diagnosed with Leukemia on Christmas Eve 2008, I thought my life was over. I lost an uncle to cancer and thought seriously God don’t let us re-live that experience again. Through out the course of a year, my brother fought for his life and beat the crap out of his cancer. Science can only do so much. I knew God had a bigger role in this story. I was my brother’s 6 out of 6 bone marrow transplant donor and that was when God gave me a purpose. I thought if I fail and do nothing for the rest of my life, it’s okay because at least I was able to give my little brother this gift. I thank God everyday for this miracle. My brother’s sickness ended up being a blessing in disguise. God wasn’t going to take my brother from us. Instead He was using my amazing brother to teach us all a lesson in faith. After this experience, I started living my life differently. I thought less about ways to fix my own problems and started thinking more about ways God can come in and take over a situation- just like he did with my brother. I thought, God I know you exist. I want to know WHO you are, though. Am I praying to Mohammad? Jesus? Budda? I needed to know.
A close mentor suggested I ask God one night while I’m doing my routine nightly prayer to reveal Himself to me. (At first I thought is He going to pop up in my bedroom or something because that would just freak me out!! ha!) But I quickly knew that my ability to connect with “the other side” was likely going to happen through my dreams at night. As a kid I always had these prophetic dreams and I was about to have my biggest one yet. That night (I have goosebumps thinking about it), I had a dream I was in the church praising/worshipping Jesus Christ’s name. In real life (at the time), I didn’t even know what worship meant or who Jesus really was! This was a new revelation to me. I was actually in denial at first because I didn’t want to accept that this was the truth. I was excited and afraid at the same time. For two weeks straight, I had these out of body experience dreams that I can’t even put into words. These dreams became an escape from reality (as cheesy as this may sound) and a way for me to get to know Jesus Christ. I started researching more and surrounding myself around the Christian faith. It just felt so right. After 22 years of missing out, I felt like a kid with a million questions for this Jesus guy. The rest is history.
God continues to reveal new things to me everyday. I’m still in the baby years of chasing my new found faith, but boy what a year living in Los Angeles makes. Sometimes I feel like Hollywood is the devil and it’s devastating to see people sell their souls. Whether I’m having a good day in LA or a bad day missing Texas, it’s always comforting to know that God is with me. He has transformed my heart, my mind and most importantly my path. I am literally living my dreams and it’s because God has given me the opportunity and a platform to shine. The biggest lesson I’ve learned in all of this is re-building your foundation of happiness around God instead of centering it around a person, a job, or whatever- is the best decision one can make. That foundation will never crumble on top of you. It will never trap you. Honestly there isn’t a right or wrong way to know God. All religion aside, having a personal relationship is seriously the best. You quickly learn that no question is a big enough question for God that only He can answer and reveal.
So happy I found the courage today to come out and share my personal testimony with you. This blog is seriously one of the biggest blessings that God has given me. Hope you have an amazing weekend guys! <3
If this outfit could talk it would say, “hey I’m girly but totally edgy so get out of my way so I can strut my stuff.” (hhaha I seriously don’t know where I come up with the stuff I say sometimes.)
Anyways, I’m excited to share my new/favorite sweater with you (it’s to die for!). I don’t even know if ‘sweater’ is the right word. This one is a gem. Literally. It’s embellished to the max and I’m obsazzed with the bling-bling overdose. Adding a little bling to your wardrobe can really make you stand out, so try it but remember not to over-kill (please!). For me, there’s no better way to compliment this fancy sweater than with a chic leather skirt to match. I love mixing timeless pieces with bold one-of-kind finds.
Who’s ready for the weekend?! I have so many exciting projects coming up that I’ve been working over-time. Can’t wait to share deets with you!
Shirt: Nany’s Klozet x Furor Moda
Pants: Silence + Noise (sold out) – similar ones here +here
Plaid Shirt: Forever 21 (shop similar here)
Heels: Zara (n/a)- similar pair here + here
Bag: Rovi Moss
We all have a dream, so why not blog about it?! Today I’m very inspired by this adorbs graphic limited edition tee I got from my girl Nany’s Klozet in collaboration with Furor Moda. I love it so much! This is definitely a shirt that I can see myself wearing a million times over whether it be dressy, casual, flirty, lazy- you name it!
I started blogging over three years ago to help me sort of figure out what my “dream” was. Along the way (and what feels like 27483434 posts later!) I discovered that I am living my dreams. It’s so hard to embrace that sometimes when you’re constantly building towards something. It’s funny how life pans out.
What’s your dream?
Skirt: T-bags Los Angeles (also love this skirt & this dress) HOLY Prints!
Top: Luna B. (on sale!!)
Heels: Zooshoo (runs a little big- go 1 or 1/2 size smaller)
Bag: Target (shop similar)
Necklace: Happy Wrist
Today’s outfit knocks out the term “Monday blues” with this ready-to-partayyy purple skirt! I know it’s like below freezing in most parts of the world right now, but Los Angeles seriously has a weather-mind of its own. 70 degrees and sunny all the time? This can’t be real life.
I’m 5’2 so I rarely wear pencil skirts (why? Because they turn into maxi skirts on me. ha!) but there was something so special about this one (you know you have a fashion problem when you start talking like you’re in a relationship with your clothes #sazanprobs). This one however is totally Sazan approved. Love it.
Have a stylish week! xoxxxo